My blogging attempts

I've attempted to make soooo many blogs I can't even remember their names and URLs.

I remember my first blog as an attempt to "indirectly" tell a certain someone that I still loved him, even though reading blogs is something he will unlikely do (I feel like a pathetic loser every time I remember this), but I'd like to let whomever is reading this know that I'm totally over him. After that, my motives changed slightly from "desperate cry out for love" to "desperate cry out for attention" (oh God... I can't believe I was ever like that... so so so pathetic). Anyway... I think figured out why my blogs never lasted.

Basically, I'm a person who loves to write. I feel like I'm better at communicating in writing than verbally. When I speak I tend to speak real slow coz I think too carefully of what I'm going to say. and when I try to speed up my speech I stutter a bit. Birth defect? Don't know, don't care, people who know me understands. Now... from all the attempts I made in making a blog, I tried too hard to make an "attractive blog" that would appeal to other people and what I come up with is stuff that I don't really understand but try to present anyway. When what I should have done (and what I'm trying to do now) is to make a blog that I can personally relate to. And being the kind of multi-interest person that I am, I'm going to focus not on my interests... but just simply what's on my mind. Because I realize that I tend to make impressive statements the best when I'm not thinking too much of it. I'm also not going to care whether this blog is read by other people or not. The important thing is that I keep on writing and getting things out of my head.

Now, I try not to make this blog too typical, but I can't help posting about PTCs right now. I mean... who doesn't like money? Or at least, who doesn't need money? So. sorry if there are some typical contents in this blog... but i assure you it's not going to be my focus. In fact, I don't think there is going to be a focused topic in here.

Nonetheless, I could always use a helpful suggestion. Your criticism is always welcomed.

So... enjoy this... or not.